Hotter

changing the mood in this drawing alot, somethign new to study.

we were rushign to finish the skull, cause my friend was moving the next day, didn't finish though.

More snakes,

my usual reoccuring dream,
this time it was not scary, it was rather ..playful. I remember running around and as my friend throw different types os snakes at me.
I came up with a conclusion of what it might mean.
the last time I dremed about snakes, a little while later, I was well, if I remember correctly i was infectuated with Violet and a little bit after the dreamed..we are nothing. so with this last dream, I can't wait to see what other interesting event might happen.

I has also dreamed about that same house, a couple of night ago. This time the house seemed alot more peaceful. I wasn't affriad of the ghost, or what ever was hunting that place, from what i can remember , it seems to look like one of my passed away uncles wife. As I was setting in the back having dinner, there were not any dark glooming mood to it like it usullly does, I wonder what that means.

What a joke

Well, so much for that, she turned out to be a major flak.
we're not even together and she already is driving me crazy. I suspect she's interested in another guy and just stringing me along.
I was so pissed the other night, she asked if i wanted to go see Star Trek on Monday night, and never bother to show up, call or pick up the phone. How fuck up is that, no respect at all. Even if we are just friends that's not how you treat a friend.
the interesting thing is that this is the 4th time I let it happen, so to be fair alot of it is my fault, i should know better then to walk right into that.
so i came home and deleted and blocked her off of my myspace page, i think that made her pretty mad, and the only way for her to send me any messages is to response to a message I left her on her page. the message I left her read " We would make a cute couple"
and her's was "Keep dreaming chatree" lol, how ....well, at this point I think I prefer to dream about her then to be with the real her. she's not exactly a price catch. She acts like she likes me one day, and then the next totally disregarded me, what a waste of time.
the good news is that now i can see clearly, no point of putting any hope into something that is not there. The best thing i can do is move along. I dont have to see her images on my space, so that is good too, because that can be quite distracting at time. Because everytime i logged on, i can't help but to wonder about what she is doing and all that crap.
blah, this is crap, I don't care anymore,
Why do I always end up persueing girls with serious issues.

-Become a US citizen 690
-School loan lots soon

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next up.
-Dental 3 480

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-rechargeable batteries. 50
-glasses. 160
-Predator 170

Tattoos supplies (not cheap at all)
Medicide 28
tattoo machine 400
brushes 5
hose 129
hose spliter 150
nipples 20
needles 20
disposible tubes 30
autoclave cleaner 35

New girl-friend

been pretty slow, but those were fun to do .


woo hoo! maybe. waiting to see how this pan out.

Snake time

it has been somtime since my last snake dreams, Still can't figured out what it means yet.

I was out side in a park, i think with my sister.
washing dishes with her at a outdoor sink station.
there was cactus, the little one all around, lots of green grasses, soft morning sun.
as I was standing on the left shorter side of the sink, a snake snucked around back. It looks to be a rattlesnake of some type. I freaked out and ran into a hut of some type. there was another person with me, i think it was my sister. the snake chased us in there. while in there i jumped up and grabbed on to one of the beam. thinking that if i can just be out of the snakes striking range i'll be ok, while pulling the rest my body up i looked to my side and saw the other person doing the same thing. the snake attempted its first strike but missed. I looked down and realized that I was not at all out of the snakes striking range, the snake strike again, this time it looks like it finally got me, but right before it bites me I woked up. .
blah blah,

Good times,

My friends had a going away party at their place last night. My friends are leaving to Iraq in July. there were food, drinks and everything. I invited her to come and she was there. Lee and his date was also there as well.
My date was pretty, we had a bunch of food and some drinks, I was hoping she ll get really drunk so that I can take advantage of her :P ha, I told her she can have my bed and I'll take the couch. or we both can sleep in the same bed (It's not going where you think it's going) However, I must admit I'm pretty wild in bed. by that I ment I roll around kicking and knocking every next to me, so...yah, she might not sleep very well.. or have many bruises in the morning.
I think she wanted me to kiss her or something.(lol, I'm pretty bad at reading sign) so I did , just a small peck to her big juicy lips though. next time, or a year from now, i ll make it a full open mouth kisses. We suppose to meet up for a double date again tonight, me, her Todd and Ruhi are going to watch Terminator Salvation tonight at AZ Mills. She invited me to go salt river tubing today but unfortunately I have to work. She does have nice figure and told me she ll be in her sexy bikinis.
on Monday the four of us are going up to Sedona, I can't wait, been talking about going up there for along while now. She mentioned that she likes fishing alot, so we might bring a fishing poll or two.
i'll post some pictures

more organized.

this actually was completed at record time ...at least to this stage anyways. I followed a more systematic steps , and in the end it really help to organized everything, resulting in a faster turnaround. heh , i will try it on my next drawings, learning a few other new tools too.

A Hot Date

Yah, How about that. I haven't seen her in a long while, we will go see Terminator ..the new one.
and then Todd and his wife, we are going to SEdona finally. and possibily her too as well.

woo hoo hoo

My new tattoo machine will finally be here next week, tuesday to be exact. I can't wait.
it'll be awesome.

note, appoint ment
James 3pm. thursday.

next week,

can't wait, i think the new tattoo machine is finallycoming, after almost 3 months of waiting.
cheers!!!

i did this lastnight. tons of detail

all done!

a new tattoo design, going on to some one's side. hope to finish it. obviously we all who what this is.
not touching her again, took a while. oh well, her first drawing was pretty ...ok, now its more the style i wanted.
i started coloring this now, the original drawing was done by jessica if anyone remember, not sure how long this one will take either. but still fun though.

Time no wait.

man, where did all the time went? will post more later on today.
I m planing a trip to Thailand next year.
finally will be getting my new tattoo equipment soon.
hi to all.
been working on a few new drawings.
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-Become a US citizen 690
-School loan lots soon
-Bank 200

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next up.
-air compressor 200
-Dental 2 160
-Dental 3 480

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-rechargeable batteries. 50
-glasses. 130
-Predator 180

must finish

this drawing has gone though countless transformation, i m hoping to finish it soon. a little weird

Need lots of money.

boo hoo,
damn compressor, at least the ones that will last will cost 800-1700 , damn, need money!!

New adventure

I have always wanted to look into airbrushing, seen some really amazing stuff done with it.
I will save for that next. yay, I will post some new stuff later on today.

redo draw this

to do list

-Become a US citizen 690
-School loan lots
-Bank 550

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next up.
-air compressor 200
-Dental 2 160
-Dental 3 480

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-rechargeable batteries. 50
-glasses. 130
-Predator 180

yo

Need to get asap

barrier film
http://www.sporestriptesting.com/

cool photos

random and useful images for references and such.

Money, Money,money

Unfortunately I need quite a bit of it atm.
Been away for a bit, acutally I' m still here just haven't got around to posting anything new up and I do have quite a few new stuff. Will do it with in the next couple days here.


-Become a US citizen

-School loan lots
-Tattoo machines 150
-Bank 1300

next up.
-glasses 100
-Predator
-car registration 100
-air compressor

color test...again

new color test, making her more realistic,,,hopefully or at least into my own little style.

Need stuff

Things to do within the next couple months.
-Become a US citizen 695
-School loan lots
-car registration 100
-car break 25
- file tax +350 need to finish tonight.
-Tattoo machines 750
-Bank 1300
-rent 350
-glasses 100

In other news, I have 't been very inspired in anyways, how terrible but I'm sure it'll return . I can't wait ti get my new tattoo machine set up, it'll be awesome.

shanon

an idea for her.

Goodie.

Hi,
Been sick for the past 4 days, I hate laying here. be back soon.

Blood Brothers

fucking great, today I poked my self with a needed (bound to happen,. just a matter of when) that has been contaminated.
-every tattoo artist i guess have it happened to them at some point.

-luckily he is clean...or at least he say he is. now i have to get my blood check in a few months. damn.

My damn Luck!!

notes to self.

*Testing the limits of the skins:
need to find out or test to see how well colors over lap each other on skin(one of the biggest obstacle in tattooing is finding someone that is willing to let me do some testing on their skins, so that i can fully understand the limits of what I can do with it) layering it I suppose would be a better word for it. i.e. covering up the outline with another color. say I want to cover up the black outline with a color and eventually make it fade away. From what I can gather you are able to do that and I noticed that when I tried to put color over a black outline that was fully healed it seemed that the color covered up the black outline pretty good, not like oil becuase I can see faintly see the black outline under it, so it may take a few cycle to fully cover up the black outline. ie wait for the skin to head then go back over it with the same color.
can't wait. If i know how far i can push it then it would be fantastical.
amazing artist/tattoo this is close to the stuff i like . http://www.nickbaxter.com/
and he knows how to push it to the limits.
no black or very little out line like most traditional tattoos.

more updates

this one was started about 2year ago, finished most of it today, i tried doing motion blured , see by the boots, using nothing but diagnal lines i was able to somewhat achived that effect..hahah, two millions lines laters this is what i get i suppose, pen isn't the easiest to work with but it was fun while i was working on it.
this one is pretty much done, it looks better with the uncompressed file.
this one is worked out a bit more , so far she likes it, it will go on her side.

Moody again.

This picture explain it all.

Slacking again.

Hope on Crystals neck, used the wrong machine...it was running too slow and it took alot longer then it suppose to, damn.
this one was fun. she loved it. still didn't smooth all the color though
this one is done too, i noticed that i tend to go dark too fast, must remember not to do that.
this one is finally done too, started on it like 3 months ago, i got a 50 bucks tip . yay.
this one , we stared like 2 months ago, had to redo it again. but it is looking alot stronger and i feel alot more confident. cheers!
this one i like to get done soon, been working on her for quite a bit more. now that i ve gotten better with a few new techniques.
this one is finally done as well , started back in August. whew i think it looks great especially from about 6 feet away, very noticable.
this one took a bit of work, seemed like her skin don't take ink as easily. i really hate doing fonts stuff but this one turned out fairly good, lucky me.
Greg's leg, this one turned out a bit darker ..again. i should started painting with skin tone as my default back ground colors from now on.
revisiting old drawign again. this time this one looks wayy better for sure. this one was last worked on in 07.
Fuck the police, a tattoo idea , three puck roker beating up a police officer. should be intersesting. she even gave me money too. yaya,
this one i started back in 07 in photoshop, just thought i try to finish it, and it is close to being done, i want to keep it faily dark.

in other news. Nothing exciting really , just trying to finish a crap load of drawings and staying busy with tatttooing as much as possible. Ordered me some tattooing supplies yaya!!! I needed it really bad. should help quite a bit. this week i made an extra 300 bucks . now if i can do that evey week i ll be happy.

How long till then?

this one is turning out a lot more complex then i had original planed, but still fun to look at ,
random stuff i did at work , combined 3 different drawing into one.
i m getting quite good with doing stars now ")

In other news,
Boy, girls are ... I just don't understand them. This one special girl I really was looking forward to developing some kind of relation with is now...well, I guess she's now in love with some guy. Strange how she was avalible a few days ago, or the entire time we ve hanging out she made it pretty obviously that she's single.
I asked if she was seeing anyone, and she totally played it off like she doesn't know what I'm talking about. and insist that was can still hang out. I really have no problems being her friend or hang out with her, the only problems is weather he ll be ok with it. I 'm not sure if i like the idea of getting brushed off like nothing and standign there on the side line cheering that her relationship will work. I insist that I was merely curious about her status, and it was ok that she is seeing someone. and I would have np staying in contact with her, or at least be her myspace friend. so far, no reply. makes me kinda sad that's this has to happened, i m not sure why we can't just be normal adult and just communitcate like one.

all this wonderful stuff we talked about doing...together, it sounded great, I was thinking to my self , a girl is actually wanting to spent time with me? i put hope and was looking forward to it.
I was dumb enough to not realized that i was at the same time opening myself up to major disappointment.

oh i dont even know where to think really, i know i wasted too much time on it, I hope that she didn't just meet this guy less then a week ago and decided she is in love with him already , cause that would down right silly. I do sincerely wish it works out for her, friendship is all that i can offered her and i told her that i will always be here for her. ....


the good new is that since we ve only been goingout/hanging out for a short time, there were no real feeling there so , it is alot easier for me to drop it and just move along. I sincerely do wish we still remind friends though.

oh Hell, My writing sucks,

yep , another day.

yep, took a while as usual, didn't do the original design. should probably give it its proper credits but what ever.

been lazy

getting more comfortable with hard surface drawings. that should be my goal for the rest of the year. Hard Surfaces.
did this on Monday, started about 5 months ago. not sure, , it looks a bit muddy but that's just black ink on the surface. should be off and clean ones it is healed.

been busy for a while. more later, too lazy to write. Alyse, if you re still visit , you should give me a call!!!

Ball Point pen fun!

Hi
I started this drawing a while back , it was off of a photo, was really bored at work and thought i could use more practice, and decided to add alot more to it. i really enjoy ball point pen, really hard to get used to initially but ones i m used to it, its quite enjoyable. almost like working with a single needle tattoo machine.
in other new,
Violet birthday is today and she really wanted me to give her a tattoo, she also wanted me to spent the day with her. i pick up some flower s for her this evening, haha, cheap wal mart flowers. but its the thought that count righ? then we ll finish the tattooo , early noon, then go out to dinner or something, then off to the movie. seems pretty basic. last friday we went to see that movie Yes Man, it was pretty good.
she's getting alot more confortable around me , so that's always a good sign,
we were suppose to go up to Sedona for her birth day but My frind told me it is probably a little to cold to be up there right now, so we will wait till spring or something.
We are spending new year even together :P hahah,
...i think we re just friends but i guess you ll never know.
I asked her she should spent the night with me, hahah, just sleep over nothing sexual , but yah right , ritght! perhaps in the feture. tattooing is going great.

boohoo

Pablo

Pain? i hope it is right.

The line looks a bit wooboly here and there, should be fine ones the colors are added. lol it ll help to make it less noticeable.

It worked, yay!

The potential mate, she totally turned me down (Although I can feel there's a bit of sprark there) and said that she would much rather like me as friend, that of course is fine too. I must confessed that for a few minute I felt somewhat rejected but then a few minutes later realized that I never had any hight expectatioin to begin with so ...Oh well.
We talked about all this little stuff we wanted to do together, but I think I blew it.
Her Birth Day is next week, and she said that we should go do something, Sedona, dinner and movies. she suggested that we shold go watch the Punisher last night, after dinner then changed her mind and wanted to go get started on the tattoo. and then she asked me if I had any plant for New years eve and suggested that we go hang out, I'm not really sure how seriously I should take her words though, Last Friday she was a no call no show to the tattoo appointment, and last night she didn't call me like she supposed to.
Call me silly but I can' t stand it when people do that to me, not just her. It's a waste of my time, so as my new year resolution, I'm going to set a very firm rule, if my appointment doesn't call 20 mins after their appoint I will cancel it and just fucking take off, that's their lost for being such incosidered bastard. We had a nice dinner together last night but that was just that. ha and she paid for it too :P sucka.
I have no problems being friends, but hopefully she will not get weird out when I go out with other females. Now tha I 'm a bit older I'm looking forward to building a long lasting relationship.( although no luck yet, but I'm sure something is bound to turn up sometime)
at the same time, i m not even sure if i relly want to get involve with anyone, oh crap it is too early!

420 is a total turn off

revamp

Life drawing

took a bit of work , almost 3 hours.

A Hot Date

Violet Hotness.

new more

crystal , her leg took the ink really well, nice and bright.
WIP , Michelle.

good god, that took a while.

this one took a while, lol, considering how large it was, but i was being pretty picky about it, turned out fairly clean = happy me and happy client.

I'm awesome :D

fast
helping my old friend .
concept for tomorrow's tattoo.
another painting i started almost 2 years ago
hahah, don't tell anyone I said that. This year has been quite exciting. I have learned soo many new things, meet soo many new cool people, it is awesome, looks like it can only get better next year. now all i need to is is focus and stay on track and I will get there.
I have meet quite many new faces, hopefully I can remember them all or when I see them in person again.

For the most part this year have been fairly happy for me,
almost accomplished all that i set out to do, Cheers for that.

i come back later.

STAY FOCUS AND LET NOTHING distract self.

My Hot friend

this one took 3 hours to outline, it is fairly large.
this one took too long but still fun to do
this one is done. going on Crystal's leg or somewhere.

Yah, she's coming back and i get to hang out with her, She's really cool , can be quite at time but i love that in a girl. ahh, how nice. It has been a while since I get really excited about a girl. ..how typical.
life is busy as usual.

busy being lazy

This one was fun, I felt much more confident then, did most of the shading in 3 hours, a little slow but a good improvement. the two butom skulls were done or at least i thought it was done, but then it was mostly rubbed off when i see her, i will need to go back in and touch it up. hopefully she ll take care of it and i wont have to mess with it too much the next time i see her.
this one was fun to do, you can see the drawing a few poses down, i didn't do the original out line design. just shading part, i kept it pretty light for the time being. need to make it look like it is made of stone.

Miss loud and out spoken Crystal , I really like working on the wrist, its very rough to get the ink to stick. yet satisfy ones it is on.
coloring fun, i still like looking at this, I just keep adding weird stuff to it each time i work on it.
heh, something that is meant to never be done. looks better though.i really need to focus on draparies, i think i m gona make her cape come down and wrap aroundher right arm and around the hip.


hi, Been pretty lazy as of late.lots of exciting news. I thinking of changing my hours to morning at my job, that way i ll have time to go out and play at night during the weekend.
This smoken hot girls came by and got tattooed , pretty sweet, and they think i m awesome or something along the line.
After months of MIA my friend is finally back , whew hopefully she is doing alright.
Made soo many new friends/network its pretty amazing.
I'm awesome I know :P
People start to offer me money now , yay!!
soon i ll be able to afford 3 meals a day.
on the 8th of next month this guy is gona pay me to tattoo somethig on his back.

good ref

Quarter Mile wide fireball in slow motion!

Rob's concept

this one is going on my friend's back, sometime early next year, we suppose to leave to LA for a few days next month, but money will tell me if i can or not. oh well, if not then early next year.

Uncle Zam

updated version. today i cooked me some chicken soup.
life has been very busy but at the same time very exciting. i m so stoked to learned sooo much new stuff. I enjoy it quite a bit meeting new people, figuring out new techniques.
each person i tattooed bring new and exciting experieneces. I enjoy talking to them and getting to know each of them as individuals.
everyl have or bring their own art so its always chancing from projects to project. keeps thing fresh in my end. can't ask for better stuff :) more money to buy more supplies would be nice but soon.
this pretty little lady wanted me to draw this for her, and maybe even turn it into a tattoo.

Whew!! i m actually progressing

slowly but surely, the one on the right was done two years ago this month, while the other one is done two days ago. ha

another exciting week

another drawing i have to get done this day or tomorrow.
this one is done, didn't spent much time on the smokes, oh well,

this will be going one someone's arm, it was sent to me all fuzzy and full of noises, i had touch it up quite a bit.

useful info

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Slow

Oh my Gosh , i m fucking slow!

blah

not in the mood

this is pretty all i did the entire weekend. crap.

Running out of passsion to draw as of late . oh well.

running in circle

10-13-08
Visited the office again, Had to fax the copy of the lease again. the manager lady said that if they send out the check that day or the next it should be in by Thursday.

10-17-08
Visited office, no check. Was told that they do not have my security deposite money, and will not be able to cut me a check till the end of the month. WTF?! this is after nearly two months since I moved out.
According to AZ state law they are required to refund my security deposite within 14 days, and if there was any deduction to it, they must provide me with written itemization of any damage costs, so far I haven't seen either of those.

my roomate and I cleaned up the place pretty damn good, but i m sure in court they ll just said the place was left all fucked up.
I m not sure how people like this stay in business. I said people because the apartment I used to lived in is privately onw, by some family in CA from the sound of it. I think they own a few other lots in Phoenix as well.
=Preparing to file complain paper work at The Arizona Attorney General office, and if they give me another bull shit again, I will go ahead and fill for Small Court suit, should be exciting.
Although the money isn't much, I just can't let companies/people like that get away with it.

Fun day again,

a good start, took about 2 hours so far, new technique. probably about 5 mores hours to go. should be exciting , i am a lot more adventurious with it. this one takes alot of patitne to get it nice and smooth, and you know how much patients i lacked.
this one is fun turning out pretty good, need a little touching with the curvy part, this is about 1 quarter of what it will be on his arm. until tomorrow.

LIFE is pretty good, everything is working like the way it should, i might be dirt poor but i m fairly happy with it for now.

next

After months of M.I.A Jessi finally is back in action, we went to life drawing tonight and catch up on some life story. this one was done with ball point pen in a little under 2 hours.
Life hasn't been very glamorous as of late or ever but still surviving.

sooo very tired.

started this months ago, Eric finally have time to come back and get it done.
Greg's grandfather, only had 2.5 hours on it so far. still got a long way to go. at least 8 hours to go.
this one i can't wait to finish , it will be in colors.
But I don't love you.......

more, and more to come

Family crest.
this one will give me more much needed practice, i think one of my main drawing is that I tend to draw really fast with pen and pencils and then with tattoo i tend to do the same thing and in most cases it doesn't work like that. oh well, it ll be fun, it will be on his back ,
this one I did yesterday, I never like drawing circles, or at least circles that has to look perfect. it will definitely need tobe fix ones he is compeletel healed.

Memories are forever

I tattooed this to day for my friend Al. We went to school together since the 7th grade. I was very touched that he ask me to do it because the tattoo really means a lot to him. Al's mother passed away many years ago and as a way to remember his mom he decided to get this tattoo of Little Lulu. She was her favorite cartoon character while growing up. I had a good time doing it, the color was straight forward but fun.

same shit

blah blah

may I stab you?

sometime i feel like ripping your face off and watch you bleed till your very last drop of blood is gone. then splash you with gasoline and lite you on fire then chow you down. if it wasn't against the law, i would kill all that can't keep their words.

terrible wrinting i know, oh well, i try.

called on Tuesday Sept 30,
Friday sept 26: showed up at the office approximately 2:30 pm, office closed. eventhough it suppose to be open.

manager: oh, you should have gotten it already, it was mailed to you on the 17 of Sept.
me: no, i don't have it.
manager: I will call my acccountant and she should get back to me about it before the end of the day.
me: ok, i will be waiting for the call.
no return call.

continue calling for the next few days, no answer, left messages.

random fun

thought i give it a fun run on this one, yah, i side tracked a bit. but this is good practice for when i go back.

moving to colors

random stuff.
colors is a way to go from now on, i think i will turn the one scene with Guts swing that sword above his head to colors now. you can only do soo much with gray scale drawing but colors is where i need to get good at. however i may started off with gray scale drawings just so i can overlay it with colors initially .

newly learned.

crap, will i ever finish this piece???

found more neat new tricks, woo hoo! this house is too hot for me!! hopefully it ll cool down soon cause i m leaving other wise.

There's just no way i can focus on just one drawing, i will have at least 3-5 drawing that i will be working on finishing up that way i can quickly jump to the other drawings ones i m bored with one. this one is really fun, give me more time to play with lighting.

Thinking, thinking, thinking.

I just realized I have no more obligation in this town. Now that I am not linked to the shop any longer I am thinking that i may just leave. Going back to Tucson would be pretty good, a place to stay, Mother. But then again, i don't want to get too comfortable there and get no where with my life. ( oh god i m old!!) I still want to go out there and achived my goals.. actually i need to clearify what my goals really are. over the years it has been distorted. It would be a step back ward really if i moved back, ..i really have no roots here. i have many dear friends here but when i m gone i will always think of them. Moving to a new town would be so exciting, meeting new people, making new friends.

If only i can get this tattoo thing up and running and become known even a little bit. i would have no problems moving around. .. I m thinking that i may just ...moving does require quite a bit of money..money i can get..by ..robbign a bank...hahah. My little sister will be returing to Tucson to finish her RN degree next summer. ..I wish i could go live with her in SF . I suppose to go visit here at the end of the years for a few week. can't wait for that. i like the winter there. then i can go see Hana and Dan too. ..I must get out!!!

notes: take all unecceary things back home to Tucson, unless i really really need it then it has got to go.
things to keep.
-computer
- tattoo stuff
- sculpture supplies
-drawing stuff
-cloths
everythign else gone!! and i do have more shits then i need that's for damn sure, only need enough stuff to fit in car for one load. ..maybe two. right now i have about 7. until tomorrow.

...

more updates on this one, i guess it will be the piece i m working on, gives me a chance to play with more textures. then ones that's done i will color it.

Just got a bottle of wine and no wine opener...bummer :( no drunken tonight.

++Positive Energy! ++

texture painting. now it don't look so smooth, i like it
just when i thought i was about to get done. lol, now i m reworking the shoulder guard. should be done today. then on to the next piece.
Jose , almost there. one more session and we should be all done. i think the next thing he wants is an evil doll of some type on his calf.
Lorrisa, touch up of her old tattoo which she her self created in school while in class. thats pretty amazing to be able to do that in class.

Ok, So being Negative isn't going to solve anything.
No matter how I think, there alway someone out there who's main goal in life is to turn someone eles's life up side down. and that's fine. maybe they had a rough life? or just an asshole. and need a place or someoen to take it out on...i m just glad i can help.
I hate being mad at silly stuff like that.

Ok, so i may not be able to do what i want to do for a bit, no reason to stress over it, eventually It will come. I was thinking of doing an Autoclave funds raiser event, so far Jose has pitched in 25 bucks, lets see thats only 1175 dollar more that i need. positive thinking will definitely help, will not help with getting it sooner,but with my mind... i m always stressing over silly stuff like that..maybe some money will fall out of the sky and i won't even notcied it :P some of my friends are welling to pitch in, so that will help alot. I wonder if there's a place in town that will sterilized my stuff for resonable price. will research that this coming week. I could go to the shop and ask if i can use theirs for a few dollars. but at this point, i dont really want to be there really.
my other alternative is to use disposible tubes.. which i hate very much cause it shakes really bad, shaking and tattooing not good combination.
I was relieing on the shop to sterlized all my stuff, and now that i am no longer there. and now that i need to sterlize my stuff i didn't know how expensive and Autoclave can be.
I learned not to relie on anyone for anything = good and bad.

there are very few poeople out there that i dislike or can't get along with. But i guess no matter how hard i try i just can't please everyone.

I just need to stay focus , ignore all negativities along the way and go out there and own!!!

Shit outa luck!!!..again

Mother Fucker, Bi.ch, Sh.t! Ass, Cock F..k Damn, ..Bahhhh!!!!

keeping on going

yay! (somehow it feels like i just did this , oh well) i m on the roll, soon i ll be ready to move to colors. i can't wait, one day I want to go into Concept art. one day.. this one only took and hour or less to finish, not sure exactly but got it done faster ..
its hard to not notice the deformation in the skull, there's some part in there that just make no sense. What I really need to get is a SKULL. ...the real one are pretty expensive. ..I will save for one of those. If i can get my tattoo to look somethign like that i ll be good to go, and i know i can just need more time and dedication. and as of late i have alot of those lately , thankfully. and ones i get there, i can take a loooong vacation.

Today my mother was bugging me about when I'm gona get a wify and start a family., lol i always give her the same reply..when i meet the right one. (and then i added, you know some people go on with their life with out ever meeting the love of their life, ha and then she told me i was crazy) Dear mother wants Grandchild she said. and she said that im getting old. :( she is getting old too. I would like to have at least one for her before ..she..well ,she has always been sick and ...well i hope nothing bad will ever happen to my mother. she suggest that i should go back to Thailand or soem other country maybe Russian or something. (her husband worked there for 9 years and have alway told me that if i wanted to find a good wife i should go there) sigh, only if it was that easy, i would already have one. but I guess that would make life boring and dull. ..or i could just save up a good chuck of cash and begone. what a great idea!
ha i like this song.

good enough

sweet! picked up more new tricks tonight, i miss sculpting. i m thinking of doing that this weekend. but then again, i have sooo much drawing to complete. blahhh. got me more tattoo supplies to day, but the effin company send me the wrong needles. need autoclave....like right now!!
next up, i have 3 skulls to finish for Saturday. fairly straight forward.
yah, that's just about done, there suppose to be smokes around the head some in front of the head. but i ll do that later but for not it is done.

The Snakes continues to hunt me in my dreams, I took a small one hour nap and it was there, in my front yard...in a pileof cactus. its mouth open ..very much like the way the Predator's mouth looks like and then a small rattle snake tries to attack me. ...hahah, suckers can't get me!

still can't figure out what it means I wishes what my mother'd told me what it means is true.

another day gone..

and with my super Nerd skill i was able to get this , still got a bit of work to do, but man, it is one deformed dragon. ..oh well,
photo of the outline of the tattoo.
FINISHING up this , can't be on it for too long, i have to cut it off fairly quickly due to time. ...that is my problems this days.
this is the style were going for. with the idea below.

Caution: many bad grammars

Don't look at me, I m just following order. It was my friend's idea. I personally think its not the best position to do that. realisticly she should be on her knee in order for him to be able to position himself so that he can swing with enough power to chop though her . the idea is to take this initial design and match the style to the drawing above.
as i said, i dont really like the position really, i think she, her body should be pointing more toward the camera, on her knee with his hand holding her shoulder, but if that is the case then depending on how the camera angled, it may looks like the guy is just standign behide her, and not doing her at the same time. whew! this is hard. I will need to watch more porns...for research purposes..of course.

jumping the gun again. if you look at this and compare to the latest one i m working on , this one needs to be more dirty, more randome texture though out the piece to give it personality. looks like it was done by two different artist. if anyone remember this , i drew this one back in Feb of this year i think . now i just want to go back and fill the back ground with lots of guys standing around waiting their turns and bodys litering the gound, should be fun. it needs a darker mood, with dramatic lighting..in theright spot.
I was on this for 3 hours today, was having a hell of a time, trying to shading it in. my contact lens was geting dry really fast and it blured my vision..so that was rathe annoying, need to get a new glass asap if i am to tattoo gooderly. still fun though.

NOTE TO SELF: NEED GLASSES, ASAP!!!!!
I wonder where Miss Alyse went, hopefully she's doing alright.

tattoos drawings

time to catch up on some tattoo design before it gets out of control again... as if i hasn't already have.

REturn of the Snake.

I was talking with Alyse about it the other night and its back...How weird.

this moring about 10 mins into my sleep (around 8 in the moring) in my dream i was back home in Tucson in the back yard watching my mother working on her garden. we have a pretty good size back yard and every chance she has my mother would pretty much turn it green. It was pretty amazing to set back there when everything is fully grown. my mother have all this exotic asian vegetation and herbs. but that was years ago and now she's living with her husband, so the back yard is pretty much empty again. anyways as i was standing there, my mother turned around and yelled at me "snake" confused , i was thinking to my self "snake?" here? wah? "
it was a small snake, looks to be a cobra of somekind.
it tries to strike me many time fortunately with my Ninja reflex i manage to dodge it all. then the dream faded into the scene. i was standing in our parking lot up front with my sister. she picked up something ..i think it was a garbage bag, and then i saw what looked to be another snake, same as the one trying to attack me earlier, but it was only the lower half of it. as i stood there trying to figured out where the rest of the body went. my little sister point to my foot , i looked down and i saw the bastard, i trying to reach for it, but somehow managed to clam up my leg into my pants with half of its body missing. seconds later i was bitten...before i can feel anything i was awake. ...
i wonder what it means, it is not like most snakes dreams i had though out my life. the mood, the setting , even the size and behavior of the snakes are totally different. my mom told me it means one thing while someone told me something else.

in the past, when i was in high school , we used to go out in the desert collecting Hohoba beans, I think they use it to make shampoo. out of four of us, i was the only one that come across snakes quite a few too. mainly Rattle snakes. none of it were threatening or anything, but i would alway managed to find them. one time as we walked home on this trail , the sun was almost down, i was the last person on the trail behide my mother and her husband was in front. I dont know what happened but they did't see a huge rattle snake moving along the trail right next to them. her husband walked right passed it, and then as my mother was about to walk up to it, i looked down and saw it ( i think it must be at leat 5' long) i grabed on her arm or shoulder ,,dont rememember and point it out to her. the snake didn't seemed very aggressive at all, it just went along its own business and that was that.
my mother was even surprise how i managed to came across soo many snakes.

we also came across many interesting wild life out there besides snakes, or maybe it was minly just me. we saw this animal that looks like deer of somekind. unfortunately they bolted before i can pet them
we came across this thing.. with black fur.before we can identify it, it dashed into a whole. being young and curious, I decided to yanked on its tail. heh, then i was like sweet! i m gona take it home. i yanked on it for a while but couldn't get a good grip. so i tooked off my t-shirt and wrapped it around my hand. as i continue pulling. seconds later there was this very horrible smells. LOl, then we realized what the creature was .. A Skunk...needless to say, i threw away my t shirt after that.
I found this mini owl ,i meant it was tiny, probably slightly smaller then a computer mouse. anyways it looked like it was injured because it was on the ground (to me birds usually are on trees or is flying, the only time they re actually on the ground is when they feed or when they re injured.) and it was oddly small so i assumed it was a baby owl. anyway, i cought it and took it home, thanking that i could nurse it into health and most likely let it go. i placed it in a card bard box, gave it some water and feed it warms, (those that was used for finishing) a few days later we decided to drop it off where we found it. i did some research and came to find out that it was actually a full gron Owl. and it was suppose to be that size. tiny. anyways, it was listed as endanger specie so i was glad i didn't see it die.
as a child i was alway curios about all this empty holes i found along the hill side. in my mind i imagine some wild beast living in it. but fortunately never came across any that exciting. it was usually empty, or everynow and then i would come across snakes. one time i found a pretty good size Tortous (turtle) in thie hole. being me i have to alway pull on it. anyways i managed to get it out and i took it to show my mother. she was so excited by my finding. heh, lets eat it!! only kidding. i don't remember what we wanted to do with it, but in the end i just let it go. it was rather cute i though, and it was slow at moving. the desert was full of life. one time i came across hundreads of dollars worth of Foodstamp, I wasn't sure if i could use it so i just threw it out.
years later i went back hoping to revisit some of the site. unfortunately every was damaged and gone due to housing ..damn human, i hate you all.

Sleep or not to sleep..wait..

well, that obsolutely made no sense at all. i m sooo tired, but dont feel like sleeping.
blah blah. i should go sleep , good night. a quick test with texture brush
umm... more rework, needed to redo his head. and touched up the monster more. what slow process. at this rate i should be done by next year for sure.
more texture brushes test.

currently ffinishing up this one.

must finish things before moving on to next thing. no more messing around. .

Hunged out with Stacy, Cat and two of her friends at First Friday. lol, wild ladies.
Stacy!! I haven't seen her since i graduated, probably 2 years ago. whew, time sure fly. afte ward we went to join Mario's after hour party had some delicous food and caught up on some life stories. good times.

world crashing down

heh, that seemed to be happening alot as of late, most time i chose to be oblivous to it...Fuck you!!!

My fist day at the PAC meeting.

united at last

my wacom is back with me at last.
now to take care of it, this thing is rather expensive to replace.

random crap.
there was this girl that i was interested in, this was sometime ago. at that time she was fishing around which is all cool, i can understand that i was doing the same, then again which guy doen't? . i obviously wasn't the prime catch and that's fine, life goes on. "good luck, bye!" months went by and now she's back (not naming any names cause ..there has been many ..ha) wanting to chat and hang out. one side of me wants to welcome her with open arms while the other side..well, not sure really. I can't help but to feel .. fill in the blank. ..geezes , you brushed me off and never give me your time of day and now what? i don't have time for this crap. i personally prefer the second side, but at the same time i can't really see myself doing that. :[ maybe i ll just play nice and hang out and do stuff with her, but all i can offer is my friendship. sorry but the boat has left the port.

what i don't get is why they can't just say "hey , you know what i m sorry, i m just not interested in you" chatree==> Hooray!! thank you! good luck and good bye! instead they would leave you hanging , wondering geez i wonder why she doesn't return my call ? it would make too much sense i guess, maybe its too hard to do? but i get the hints.
what s worst is knowing that I'm just another guy she puts on the side line, something to fall back on just incase the next guy she meets dosn't work. ...you know what! screw this!! i m outa here!

now, be nice!!

its funny when the table turns.



in other new, i may or may not be at the shop anymore.

cheers to moneyless!

aztec update

still got quite a ways to go,but it feels nice to have it closer to being and not just hunged on the wall .

what a week!!

Hi!!! been MIA for a while,
moving! friends leaving town, more moving! missing work, work, ..another loooong night again!
LIfe is going in 10 direction right now . must find wayss to focus

luckily this job allows me focus on the things i enjoy doing, which is ,,creating i guess.
but i m so unorganized in my doing, i have over 100 drawings i wish to one day finish but i can't seem to ever get it done. My wacom will return this coming week yay!!! and was thinking of locking myself in my room and create for a while.
now that i m older , still feel like i haven't accomplished much.
last week i must admit i was a little depressed. I didn't want to leave that place in my dream.

gona go live under the sea for a while, so long everyone!!!

i think i finally narrowed it down to 3 most essential ..things i like to do for the ...most of my life.

concept creation, sculpting, tattooing.

dear sister

i just had a really good conversation with my little sister and it really helped cleared alot of things up. i need to get back into shape and focus on my goal for now.

aztec warrior female

busy busy busy!!!!

new technique, awesome fun. tablet die, hope it will not be too much to fix. been up for more then 44 hours ..
i would look cool with green hair, Claire will help me
this one i got really comfortable with the line work fun piece.
this one was fun as well, i love toing it on the calf, easy to work with.
another calf piece, still testing with colors. should look ok ones it is healed.
quick out line, took about 1 hours and 40 mins with lots of confident strokes.
Makara tattoo for Greg's wife, should be fun to do , it took forever to finish the drawing so i better do a damn good job transfering ontothe skin

ahhhh,, i m sooooo busy. sooo many people. but i can only please one person at a time so i guess i ll get toyou when i get to you.

lettering fun

get to tattoo this on my friend's back today.

popular guy

my social net work have gotten soooo much biger, for the past months i d meet more new faces then i had ever did in the past 5 years. Even girls wants to talk to me now, yay! some just can't seem to leave me alone.
the other night i was talking to this extremely attractive girl, whew, we kept talking for a while, her friend had to come by to drag her away from me :P what was her name?...bah it doesn't matter, the impoart thing is that i m out there meeting new face, she ll call...eventually. she said the she works at Mill mall and laughed at my broken glasses.
tattooing is going great as usual, thanks to everyone for being there and believing in me and for seeing in me something i sometime can't even see in it myself.
I have been working on my confident alot more,
I'm much more open to meeting random people, i m much more vocal,
i m even inspired to want to read too.
now i have friends all over town, how amaizng is that? people i actually stay in communication on a regular basis, it is amazing how fast the net work gets, one person gets a tattoo from me and then the next thing you know it, they sent 5 of their friends my way, then things gets really busy then. hehe, i m not sure if i deserve all this attentions, but i d been getting alot of it as of late. again, still woroking on my confident. ..give me a few more months and i should be ok.
ahh, so much going on,
the other day a guy came in and offered to pay for the drawing of a female aztec warrior, I haven' gotten around to do anything with her yet, but will soon when i m not so crazy busy.

i am preparing to continue with my sculpture again, hooray!! the clay should be here tomorrow , i can't wait to get started.

keeping busy

2.5 hours
too long
life has not been the most exciting, but sometime you just got to except it for what it's worth.

missing paiting

haven't paint in such a long time, thougth i tried a bit tonight

been busy, back.

this one took about 1.5 hours i tired to go as fast as i can with some bad spots here and there but over all not so bad, will post the final ones in colors when it is done, original design wasn't done by me.
this one was fun to do, it should lightening up a lot ones it is done. it was fun, took about 2.5 hours so far.

next couple of tattoos design

I'm in love! no wait, it's a stroke.

what a week! last week i was packed with tattoos, 4 of em. I received a great tip on Wendsday, 40 bucks, hell yah, not bad for getting to do what i like and only 3 hours of work, recently i have impose a 10 dollar per visit charge. no one seem to mind :) hehe, well considering it is 100 bucks an hours it is chump change. i am getting the hang of it, now i can creat better darker and more consistence lins and shade, with more time i ll learn to perfect it.
I'm mister popular now, hehe, last time i checked my cell phone i have over 110 numbers stored.

"What are the chance of a guy like you and a girl like me getting together?"
"not good"
"not good as in?? 1 in a 100??"
"no, more like 1 in 1,000,000"
"oh,..so you re saying there's a chance?"

haha maybe if i used this quote it wont hurt as bad when I get rejected. I'm thinking , ..best to find out early on the first few dates...that way it ll hurt less?? because there's not any real feelings develope yet. or wait till i know there a good chance and a stonger desire for her developed, and it turns out to be a misjudgement and then ask and get rejected?, and hurt alot more?? haha full optimaticism aren't I?

One thing for sure , i do not want to leave with out an answer, even if it was not what i wanted to hear <<== done that one too many times in my life.

I think she s intereted in me? We got along fine the first time, I asked if she wanted to go out to dinner sometime, and she said yes....bah, i ll just gauge it as it unfold and not worry about it ...if it happens then it happens if not then life goes on. one of the best thing in my job is that i get to meet lots of new faces, i ll bound to meet a few good looking girls along the way.

i ve decided to start a boook of trees, will draw trees like there's no tomorrow, believe it or not trees sales like hot cake in the tattoo business.

jose's design

a rough tattoo design going on his back, with birth symbol on in the center.

aztec and tattoo

tattoo fun, almost done, just got the coloring part to do.
due to a few request i decided to draw an aztec warrior, this is merely for fun but will started on another one soon , is is rather large, 18x24.

It's about time!

things came up and we couldn't meet up on the planted date. Last night I finally got to hang out with her, it was rather brif, we went to see Love Guru. I went by to pick her up and then we drove to the theatres talked for a bit before the movie started, then talked a bit before she headed home. needed more time for sure to get t know more. i asked if she would be interested in posing for me every now and then, she accepted and seemed very happy that i asked. haha, get her to do it in the nude would be ..yes, imagine that :P she does have tons of friends, so it is a bit awkward that she would want to hang out with me. but i suppose will see. The movie wasn't very good, not sure but it wasn't very funny, it was rather croney.

there were a few sillent moments in the car, but i guess that it was pretty normal considering it was really our first time together. i asked if she would like to come down to Tucson for a day, maybe try some of my moms cooking, hopefully she ll make it. we were discussing about how she now is a pescetarian, a psecetarian is a vegatarian who will eat fish. honestly i dont really like to eat that much meat to begin with, if anything i think i like finishes best. ...
what to do next.......well, i m sure i ll see her again, sooner or later i guess.

blah blah

executioner

this is for Sarah at work, i spent about an hour sketching with pencils, and another 2 hours laying down the basic forms, i really need to do a ton more drapery studies soon. still pretty rough but it came out decent i suppose.

balha

stoked

sweet!! i ll get to go see her this coming Monday, lunch and catching a movie, lol we ll start easy. might pick up a flower or two for her. if it all goes well, we ll hang out more, we might go swimming in the lake some where too, getting away from the city would be nice. this is great because i dont feel as shy as i used to be when i was younger. she asked me if i wanted to hang out and i asked her the same and it all went as it should, lol almost too easy. alot simpler then i last remembered. hah
stars from hell!! hahah, if you re reading this Mandie!! i m only kidding , it was fun but it was pretty hard, her wrist was small and it was pretty hard to get a grip of it so that i can stratch the skin, never the less fun to do. the one in color wasn't not done by me, i just touched up the lines and make it sharper.

fun tips

what a fun day, most of the artist at the shop hate doing tribal stuff, but i like doing it but i imagine i ll learn to hate to do it eventually.
test test

tattoos

how interestig.

heh, i can't believe it actually worked, i tooke a bit of a dive and the out come are actually what i wanted. she suggest that we go hang out, even got her number too. she has a very interesting character, smart, good looking, there so much i want to know about her, and i look forward to getting to know her.