haba! haba!

Friday we had a going away party for Hana at Alia's place, it was great fun, BBQ, swimming, socializing, drinking. I even got Diana to come all the way from east mesa. as always she looks so rad. there were quite a few people there. to my surprise Alia seemed really excited to see me( i totally made that up, makes me feel better though :0 ). i wrote her a few time but never got a reply from the last email. so i figured she probably wasn't interested. i m not sure what she was implying but she said she saves all her emails, but for some reason never wrote me back, i think i clearly said that i wanted to get to know her and all that fun stuff. now that i think about it i dont think the email actually went through. she seemed like the type that would definitely response..i could be wrong. this morning when i sent her the last email through myspace it didn't show up in the "sent" folder, if i remember correctly every email you sent myspace save a copy of it in your account. so i resent and it showed up fine..oh well.

we were up till 5 am drunk, not totally trash or anything just mix drinks and stuff.
i meet quite a few interesting people there.
i never realized how many good looking friends Hana have.
while waiting to get drinks she came up and talked to me. it was nice we talked about random interests, then we got talking about road trips and about some of the places she went or want to go to this summer. she told me how she wanted to go see Hollywood for the fist time, she invited me to go with her and her friends on the next one, well not with her to the destination but if we re heading the same way we should car pool. (or i could just be hearing things, i did had 1.5 beers) i really want to go visit Christian in LA so i think i ll take her up on that. then she got really shy for a second either that or our conversation got really awkward, she asked if i wanted to grab some food. i said yes, i m straving, then along the way to the grill someone else cought her attention, and i didn't want to cut in so i just ran along and got some food and did my own thing.

sometime later i was in the kitchen looking for a fork or something, the party was happening in the backyard out side. the kitchen was empty. then a few seconds later she also came in. for a second i thought she was in there looking for soemthing in the kitchen. but then started talking to me again, she asked what i liked to do for fun. i asked her if she was all partied out and she said no, just needed to take a breather. lol, i thought it was rather odd that she wanted to take it the same exact time i was in the kitchen but then again it is her place so sure why not. we got talking for a while, seems like there's always someone there to cut our conversation short. i really wanted to keep talking to her. heh, she looked so good in those swim suit :P .
i emailed her on saturday and well, i wonder if she is single and avalible?... Hana told me that she thinks i m ...fill in the blank and sweet. man, i m thinking too hard about this aren't i?? do it!! i think i can , do it!! stop being a pussy and ask her out on a date already!! do i really need to get involve with another girl? do i even have time? do i even care? why do i have this desire, i m in control here not you ,,,stupid desire. all this doubts but i know deep down inside i think she is the totally incredible and probably want to get with her.

ok, this is from her email. "I like to be taken out on dates from time to time, especially by nice guys. Know any?!"...i wonder if this is where i suppose to say...say, i m a nice guy , pick me!!!

lol, this is silly, i know exactly what i m doing.