But I love you!

"Wait, come back"

this one is 10000x 7300 px, the head looks better tilted like that .
Original pen sketch. didn't quite follow it with the colors version but looks good on its own.

"Hi, I'm your daughter's hot date for the evening"

I'm so excited that I had to stay up and finish this rough drawing. the time is 417am. will do more tomorrow. :P

"c'mon baby, I remember to brush this morning"

heh, spend an hour before bed detailing it, I am glad to say that i am the happiest man now :) the program rocks and the tools make everything i ever wanted it to do what took 10 mins to do now only takes mins to finish, now i can spend all my time messing with colors. Cheers!

Magic tool, finally

WooHoo!! after much searching I finally found the perfect tool, now i can add as much details as i can. Yeahhhh! Will keep you posted as i learn more.

can't sleep

The best way to check if you re forms are working out is to turn your drawing in to gray scale. looks at it I think it's looking better and better for sure. the key thing is if you can make it looks really good in gray scale, when you add colors it ll look even better.I really like the idea of painting in gray scale fist then use a color layer but it does require twice the work but it does make it easier....in a sense. this way you learn to study forms and colors . ps, it does looks a bit darker when doing it that way, I saw there was a way to fix it will keep posting as i learn.
couldn't sleep so I decided to stay up and finish this, my lighting is getting a bit better. ..i have to be up at 9 am . bah, thats gona be something. until tomorrow, which is today ") I love drawing with red. heh, not sur why. feel free to leave me your interpretation of the drawing if anyone is interested.

NIce night for a walk

small up date, i want to have foreground object and back ground stuff out of focus. not sure what s the point to this drawing. up to your imagination. i try not to use pure black

The other night Jay and I decided we should cook in the middle of the night, around 3am we took off to Wal mart. We saw the Lunar eclipse, that was pretty sweet. we didn't get done cooking until 5 in the morning, then I think i felt asleep on the floor at around 6am. my sleeping hours are all jacked up. lol, what randomness. The food he cooked last till today, pretty sweet considering it only coast 12 bucks for it. We re cooking shrimps tonight. I feel pretty good tonight, i think its time for the gym. feels good to be in shape.

MOre life drawing.

another fun night. i love life drawing, can't ever get enough of it.

I giggle like little school girl everytime I read Dan's email, geez, what wrong with me ? :D lol, i miss having someone around, well ok...a gf. Its a nice feeling to have someone taking interest in me. it gives me this weird flesh back. I still remember when I started talking to my old gf. so..innocent..."can i came visit you?" "can i kiss you?" "do you miss me? i miss you" "lets go get something to eat :)" etc, etc. now it starts all over again.

the sad thing is that before you know it, every thing becomes nothing, so , that was all it was...nothing and you re left with this empty feelings and bitter taste in your mouth. ok, ok! so it's a part of a cycle, just go with it.
realizing that makes me learn to appreciate everything else more, what you have today may mean nothing tomorrow, so enjoy and appreciate it as much as you can.
anyways, Not sure what I'd been smoken lately but... last weekend I had 3 beers and played games with some friends. ..what ever huh? until tomorrow.

ps, called the tattoo shop owner today and he said that everything is on schedule. It will be open on Sept 8, He told me that I should start practice tracing and really work out my forearm , i meant really work it out (no, masterbation doesn't count, maybe if i do it 10 times a day everyday :). I m really excited about that. work, save up and get the hell out!! yeah...

Airbrush test

weirdness, this drawing went from the drawing below to this, still fun to do .
testing out new tool, my co work asked if i could do his family portrait..of seven ..hah, that will be fun

optimistic chatree?

I love this, this morning, i went back and sketch a drawing with my pen and noticed that my skills had improves alot. simply from doing all this random painting, i felt that my forms are much stronger, my shading technique are much better. all i can say is WOW. although i still have much to learn, I love it.

much of the negative energy with in me has vanished. I have learned to be a bit more optimistic. believe it or not I am happy to say that it has help to mold me into a slightly different person i was a year ago. well, i also must say that its hard to stay in that mode all the time, especially when you're bombarded with nothing but negative energy, nevertheless it is well worth the effort. as a result i think that's why all this awesome stuff has happened to me for the past months. my friend is right for sure, optimistic(+) people tend to attract other people and good fortunes :)

At least I Try

I wonder if anyone actually visit this place. according to the counter it seems like I have a few visitors, I wonder if those are mainly me. oh well.

Dear journal:
Let's talk about Dan. heh, Like my little sister Dan got accepted into the Nursing program. did i mention that that's what i wanted to do back in my earlier years? heh. Actually Amie messaged me today. Haven't talked to her in ages. I think since last year. We suppose to go out for a drink but she disappeared for some reason. anyways, she really dig Asian guys, so ..umm. heh.

Strange, when girls are the least thing on my mind that's when they all show up. well, it's not like I'm trying to get with any one of them. it would be nice to have as many female friends as i do male. the other week I meet Ashley, she's a sweet girl. She works at office max printing place. she's the one that usually does my print work for me. she really likes my drawing and wanted me to design her a tattoo. She's going though tough time with her boy friend. I feel really bad for her because i know how shitty it can be. I wish i could cheer her up and help her though it. i know when that sort of stuff happens, one need as much emotional support as one can get from friends and family. That's it, I could, perhaps i will give her a call this week or pay her a visit at work.


My big plan is to move to LA with a few of my friends that way we all can stay connected. So far i have Josh and Christian there. They recently moved, about 4 months ago. actually Jay was thinking that after he finishes with school that we all should take off together, i think to Santa Monica, not sure what's going to happen, but seems like all the jobs are over there. I know for sure that i want to do tattoo for a while though. lol, i have many plans don't I?. actually to tell you the truth my original plan was to wait for my old gf to finish school and take her with me but that was when we were together. bahh, I guess nothing should be set in stone, just got to learn to adapt to the situation, for all i know i could be moving to Texas, Germany, Thailand or die.

One of the things i most regard in life is...being too shy about everything, I really like to follow this quote "better to find out, then not knowing at all ..lol, something along that line"
ie. I was interested in many girls but i was too shy to do or say anything as a result I wasted valueble times wondering , i guess my fear of rejection over shadow my courage. the truth is that I may or may not get rejected but i never know because i never try(actually i tried several times, let me reword that, i let too many opportunities passed by too many times ).. even if i did get turned down ..so what. at least i know i tried and trying is what count most. Then i could move on instead of spending the rest of my life wondering what could have been. another good example: when i thought i was in love i should have said so, no matter if it had meant nothing to the other person, the most important thing is that i expressed it. This does not neceassary have to apply to just girls or love but to every thing we do in general. ....become a risk taker is what i should be:)

to put the theory to test, the other night I called one of my friend. we don't have any real connection, we hardly talk but did exchange numbers some months ago. Every time i talked to her i have this weird awkward feeling( not bad feeling) . lol probably because i find her attractive and we hung out only ones. I called and casually asked if she wanted to go out to the movie. she said that she has to finish something and is unable to go but suggest that we should definately hang out again. hehe, I didnt' feel weird out or anything. but i did felt like i had accomplished something and now I can move on. LOL, i feel like a little kid.

I like writing :) until tomorrow.

Testing testing

wow,This totally sucks, i can't seem to pick the right colors or create the right shapes,,,maybe because it's so late...ehh, i mean early and my brain is shot. oh well, more tomorrow...which is today..heh

sigh, NO one wishes me a Happy Birth Day.. :~(

"Love, its a mother fucker huh"(a pain) Old School quote.

SWEET Dan!!

Dear Journal:

another fine night at work, woo hoo.(sarcasim)
Great news, Dan is coming to visit me sometime next month...well, not just me her cousin lives here in Phx. She'll be in town for a few days and wanted to see me. (sounds like a deja vu)

wait a second, ...This sounds like a trick...first they want to see you, then bamb!! rip your heart out..., oh well, never mind that
She really like the tattoos I did. I told her that I'll be more then happy to make any changes to it as she desire when she's here.
I'm so excited to get to see her after all this years, we talked several times on the phone and she seems very excited to hear my voices. I thought about all the nice things she said about me...thinking maybe she was just saying it to make me feel better about myself? but then realized no one in their right mind would do that...at least i don't think so, I doubt she has made all those stuff up.(sigh...need to work on my low self esteem)

Girls..they're so weird, they remember the littliest things. I don't remember telling her this , but she told me that she remember me telling her that I started school late and that was why I was a year behind and in her classes, that's after 15 years. (heh, maybe she still has a crush on me :) ...i wish)

next month i get to start at the shop. my soon to be boss told me I'll be meeting many girls. man, my friends are right, there's plenty of fishes in the sea. LOL, I just want one, almost hooked one but she managed to slipped away and out of my life...damn...

"I know now why you cry, but it is something i can never do" (T2)

Left behind

This one is done as well but I'll be back one day ones I'm at the level I want to be, i really need to start doing more hard surface stuydies. ie, armors, robots, something with shiny surfaces.
for now I will abandon this drawing, I will revisit it again in the near future for sure.

keep on trying

I really like working with colors now that i am a bit more confident with it.

HAPPY BIRTH DAY TO ME!!!

CHEERS!!
DANG, LAST YEAR WAS ACTUALLY NICE When i had a gf to celebrate with...now is just ME, MYSELF AND I THIS YEAR, oh well, better luck next year.

By far this is the best month this year for me so far.
-got connected with old friend.
-accepted into the tattoo shop
-jobs connection.
-discovered many new tricks in art

not much but still mean alot to me.

Winner by default, woo HOO!!

how embrassing. This was done almost a year ago. lol, thankfully I've gotten way better, I am hoping to get really really good with colors by the time i turn 40, if i can keep drawing like the way i have been, for sure I will get there :)

not sure where this is going but sure is fun to do, right now I'm just messing with it.

good to go.

I'm not sure what else to add to the drawing, should have made the background onits own seperate layer, a real pain to fix so i am going to leave it as is. The drawing should be fairly simple to begin with so i am done, yeahhahah, oh well, next time.

applying new techniques

those silly painting really help. Thats a photo of my face ,will add to it as i get better with colors.

something to someone

Dear Journal:

After 10 years I finally got to talk to Danyella. I guess my existence actually meant more to people then I had imagined. she told me all that she had remember about us back in elementary school. she told me how she cried when I left with out saying good bye. ..back in elementary school we all had the same classes all day long. we switch to different subject and all. so the kids were very close. we used to hung out, talked, run around and play at break. I remember she was so cute :) and still is. she was always there talking to me asking question trying to help. Back then I my English was very limited. I had a very strange accent (still do) she told me it sounded "exotic" She still remembers the way i used to draw. We left Kekaha back in 1992. One night we just packed up and left with out a word to anyone. I guess most of the kids was wondering where I went. one of the girl(Kim) told her that she's got my address and wouldn't give it to her. So they got into a fight. She told me later that day the home room teacher had the entire class wrote me letters, of course I never got it. ( i think she just made that assignment up to get the kids to stop missing me :) I did missed all of my friends for a very long time, we had so much fun, back then I didn't know what girls were, I was just running around playing, laughing, teasing...all the kids stuff. lol, now she say I speak like normal American now, no more funny accent :( . I bet when i go to Thailand all the Thai girls will think I'm awesome, I still speak Thai but it sounds very..well, it sounds like when i was trying to speak English. Thai is totally different, no uses of English alpha at all.
heh, she said that she had a crush on me :) awe, how cute. she mentioned that she is single and alone :) I wonder if that's some sort of hints ;P. sigh, only if she lives a little closer.
anyways, back to the story, so in 1997 after high school I went back to see Ryan, he is one of my buddy from elementary school. as a matter of fact my sister is visiting him right now. to my surprise, everyone was like , OMG! Chatree! is that you?, that's 5 years later. she said she was tripped out when she saw me, at that time I think she had a boy friend. I remember running into her several times. we talked for a while I was really glad she remembered me too. Just wanted to catch up on life stories. At that time I was dating this girl back in Tucson, so yah, I didn't try anything funny with any girls. She really liked the tattoo I designed for her and said that one day when we see each other that i should do it for her. sounds like she has been through a lot. one of her cousins lives here in Phoenix and she'll be down here sometime. .. more later.

A small chance

I feel so special today, I received a lovely poem from one of my friend, some one offered me money to draw family portrait, a lady who own a company I meet at the last First Friday wrote me back:
"Chatree, Chatree,
Ohhhhhhhhhhh! Your work is so wonderful we love and we have to be in touch. Just running to return this lift and under way with anyother project. We'd would love to work with you. Tell us what your up to right now"

Awe, and soon i get to start at the tattoo shop, alrigtht!!! Thing couldn't get any better. lol, maybe i ll even meet a special someone

almost there, note: image size quite large.

Say Hi to Fluffy

Fairy Tale Love

Nothing can ever be compared
to the love we once shared
just cant believe
you would ever leave
we both made promises to stay together
for now, always and forever
cherishin the momments since the day we met
how could i ever forget
ill forever miss your lovin arms
that protected me from any harm
waitin for your sweet kiss and warm embrace
searchin for that cute smile and lovin face
wishin we had never grown apart
brings tears to my eyes and breaks my heart
told by many "love is blind"
but "follow your heart" and youll find
love you long for only told in fairy tales
for time shall tell...

This was written by one of my friend, Nella. sounds like she went though some tough time. We went to elementary school together, and i havent' seen her since high school, since 97. I remember she used to be so helpful, back then i couldn't speak english very well and i remebmer she always there offering a helping hand, ....she is cute and avalible :) muahaha, maybe if i try...theres' a a chance ...1

I'll pull that move from Dumb and Dumber,
actor A"So what are the chances of a girl like me and a guy like you getting together?"
actor B"not good"
actor A"not good as in 1 in a thousand?"
actor B"I say..more like a million"
actor A".....so you re saying there's a chance?"

LOL, I want to be optamistic just like him , 1 in a million chance is better then none for sure.

So tire, So very tired,

Didn't go to bed till 10am this morning, will update again later on today ones i m up and running,

thumb nails

more quick ideas. not sure how to incorporate the cross in there so i decided to scrap it. did it really fast on the computer after i sketch it on paper with pencil. hopefully she likes it.

BooHoo, another long night at work

XD .... still got a bit to go,,,,,finish already...damn you.
dang it

for fun and to get more traffic here, I will do Illustration Friday at least every other week.

that's wake man

I begin to like this more and more :)

tattoo stuff

a quick tattoo pencil rough and color comp for one of my female friend, There are four elements she wanted in the design: cross, hearts, two arrows, roses, and ribbons. lol, she ll owe me a date when I'm done :) I think she wants me to tattoo her too.

a quick tattoo mock up.

another night

I love this program, can't seem to let it down :) I really like the style, hopefully you guys like it as well :]

a closer look at the drawing, just to give an idea how simple it looks close up. I could probably add tons more details but that's not the style im going for. I love this style, simple and complex at the same time, so much possibilities and playfulness. playing with different shapes are fun. Although I m not very good at it yet, I love mixing different colors and make it work together. over all the image size are huge, roughly 8500x4500 pix. its rather large about 700+ mb. Thank god for fast computer and 6000 mb of RAM. ..

that's one possible idea for the background, still trying to decide what to put back there. but so far it's looking ok.

Damn procrastination

LOL, i feel like i m on a drawing marathon, i hope this one is kinda funny, the idea/concept was to have THawk with his Hawk, unfortunately its a big one. he suppose to look like he's about to fall over with all the weight to his left. ...if that made any sense, because th e bird is soo large...
Damn, and its due today. unfortunately i have to sleep too....until tomorrow..or when ever i get up.

I'm famous....sort of

I'm officially a blogger junky.

I sketch this out last night while at the life drawing, color it really quick, its for tomorrow art show. can you tell who he is?
another night at the place below, this time i decided to change things up a bit, instead of my usual life drawing, over all i wasn't really aiming for anything at the beginning of the drawing but somehow it turned out pretty good. hehe, actually , i didn't really feel like doing any life drawing at all but somehow i got sucked into it. ..oh well.
It's about time. This image was published in College time. lol, it's only the back of my head but still count for some thing, they should at least give me credit.

Emergency

Illustration Friday

There are different type of emergency action in this drawing. ..
the theme are a little weird but fun to look at. It was created in Painter. I learned a few new tricks and came up with several interesting characters.
Thank you for dropping by.

I don't have much of a life do I? :( this is all I got, my blog and my imaginary friends. ...sigh, ..oh well..)

Test Subject sign up sheet,

Dr.BrokenSandle in the house.

just leave your name, don't worry it won't hurt one bit and i give you cookie. Muahahahahah!

Father's worst nightmare?

Its fun to apply what i know now to some of the older drawings but sometime its also good to leave your old drawing alone so that you can see how far you've come. I have recently found a .3 mm mechanical pencils, its quite good at putting fin details, surprisingly the lead are very strong. too bad they dont make mechanical prisma color pencils? or do they?
did this to impress this girl while i was attending school back in Tucson....i wonder if it worked.
2001
If i remember correctly, this is one of my very first female drawing, if my memories serve me well i think its was done back in 1995-96. then later did a another version of her on scratch board.
this is a funny one, a rendition of Mona lisa holding a bug. (hehe, doesn't even look like her) did this while attending community college.
found one of my very first Predator drawing, lol, looks ok. this was dated back in 1993, 14 years. i m glad i save this.

Broken sandle

We have an art contest coming up this week, so instead of drawing my usual style, i thought i d try something new. can you recognize who she is? this one took about 10 mins to sketch out.

More drawing,

All Done!!
If you know me by heart then you'll know that that's my face. lol, not the most pleasant to look at but, thats all i got. I'm terrible at drawing mechanical design(hard surfaces) actually i think this is the first time for me.
so far i have 4 people that wants to be my test subject,